The Journey Continues

Well, we completed the course - Living From Vision. Fantastic. Steve facilitated it and he did a great job. I hope he does it again so I can audit.

Also, reading Robert Fritz' book THE PATH OF LEAST RESISTANCE. I would recommend it. He points out that living in reaction or response - which is the way most people live - creates powerlessness and victomhood. How true.

Getting it together to go to India. Yes.

Meanwhile the project is moving along. I have all but ten minutes of original music to choreograph.

I am also now under the auspices of a non-profit organization. Big step towards getting grant money. The next step is to manifest a business partner. Yes, I could do it all by myself, and I prefer to have someone experienced in these matters who is excited and committed to make it happen.

Meanwhile, two local videographer/editors have expressed interest. Both of them are aware of my empty pockets and will not be held back by that.

Yes, this project is not mine, it is simply happening through my particular beingness.

The DVDs from the cable shows look pretty darn good! We will be going from 1/2 hour shows to one hour in January.

Bitch Bitch Bitch

I looked at some pictures from last year's trek to India and got really bummed seeing all those young, gorgeous bodies. Sometimes I'm ok with getting old, and sometimes I HATE it!! So what do I do? I go out and get a decaf coffee and a great big chocolate chip cookie. That'll really help get rid of the 10 or so extra pounds. But why try anymore? Why can't I just accept that I'm wrinkled and chubby and love it? God knows I'm blessed to still be able to move at all and to remember most words.

Why the hell can't I learn what I teach?? - to love, honor and accept oneself; to be grateful just to be alive.

Meanwhile, we're getting really discouraged about living here. They won't do anything to upgrade the place. Our rugs are disgusting - old, shabby, permanently stained. If we would want the walls painted, we'd have to do it ourselves. The MAIN thing is the neighbors - the smoker whose smoke gets into our apartment and is killing us. None of the neighbors are people I'd want to hang out with. Am I a snob? You betcha.

My dream is to live in dignity, beauty and cleanliness among people of like mind, creative, curious, and adventurous.

Kali Rose put this together for Steve's 70th Birthday.

First Chakra
I Am the Rich Red Root Support of Tribal Power,
The energy of Mystical Community and Commitment.
I am your doorway to the Divine.
I am called Earth, Moon, and Rose.
My Sacred Truth is: All Is One.

Second Chakra
I Am the Orange Special Abode of the Power of Relationships,
The energy of Partnership, Integrity, and Maturity.
I help you find your Divine Purpose.
I am called Righteous One, the Foundation of the World.
My Sacred Truth is: Honor One Another.

Third Chakra
I Am the Yellow Shining Jewel of Personal Power,
The energy of Self-Esteem, Self-Respect and Spiritual Union.
I help you come of age and stand on your own Divine Two Feet.
I am called the Right and Left Legs of God.
My Sacred Truth is: Honor Oneself.

Fourth Chakra
I Am the Green Pure Sound of the Creation of Emotional Power,
The energy of Love, Authentic Power, Tranquility, and Harmony.
I help keep your heart filled with the Vital energy of Divine Love.
I am called Compassion, Beauty, and The Heart of the Tree.
My Sacred Truth is: Love is Divine Power.

Fifth Chakra
I Am the Sky Blue Purified Power of Will,
The energy of Faith, Trust, and Truth.
I help you make contact with your own Divine Plan.
I am called The Right and Left Arms of God.
My Sacred Truth is: Surrender Personal Will to Divine Will.

Sixth Chakra
I Am the Indigo Command of the Power of the Mind,
The energy of Action, Right Livelihood, and Reasoning.
I help you become a Divine Channel.
I am called Wisdom and Understanding.
My Sacred Truth is: Seek Only Truth.

Seventh Chakra
I Am the Amethyst Thousand-Petaled Absolute Power of Spiritual Connection,
The energy of Ecstatic Moments and The Power of Now.
I help you release your fear and connect to the world of the Infinite.
I am called the Supreme Crown of God.
My Sacred Truth is: Live in the Present Moment.

Judgment and Preference

We all have our "judgments." I prefer to use the term "preference" in that it becomes something personal. My preference doesn't have to be yours, whereas judgments often become something we feel should be shared by others.

To attempt to eliminate judgment, i.e. preference is, in my opinion, (another synonym for judgment) unrealistic. Here are a few more words in the family: discrimination; choice; passion; likes; dislikes; beliefs.

I choose to allow you your judgments, preferences, opinions, discriminations and choices. Just don't expect me to follow lemming-like where you go; nor do I expect you to agree with my judgments, preferences, opinions, discriminations, choices, passions, likes, dislikes and beliefs.

One of my judgments, i.e. preferences, is that I dislike it intensely when someone preaches at me, tells me how I should think, act or be.

We will be expanding the Cable TV show to an hour. It was a half-hour show. I believe this will give me the time to really offer a full experience. We shall see. So now I have a few rough cut DVDs. One is Yoga, another is Qi Gong, two are movement to music (based on Nia). With my new computer, I'm able to burn DVDs - even label them. The beauty of technology. This morning I had a long talk/listen to a man who feels that all this technology has a negative effect on humanity. He's fairly young to be mourning the "good old days." Oops, there's my judgment.

Meanwhile, I'm enjoying the challenge of learning the ins and outs of Windows 7. Many frustrations, many victories.

Starting to get it together to go to India. Details. Details. I was reminded of the practicality of having a container for my passport etc. to wear around my neck. One of my dear students will be loaning hers to me. She will also loan me some special packing assists. This reminds me a bit of years ago when I went of tour. Lists lists lists!

New and old Ventures

Well, I've gotten myself in debt - not a huge amount, but something I want to take care of quickly.

Reason? I'm going to India for a Nia blast at Auroville Community. The airfare costs more than the room, board and classes for ten days. We also incurred a few other expenses. AND I got a letter from the IRS that I owe an additional $700 plus. My accountant informs me that, unfortunately, this is correct.

SO I asked my inner guides what to do about my concern. All of a sudden people started asking me to sub for their yoga and Nia classes. Also, I got the "message" to put it out that I am available as a writer/editor.

My debt is in the form of credit cards, so I can pay the monthly minimum and get slammed with interest. I can also pay monthly to the IRS. It will all work out. Mainly, I must release my judgment - not make myself bad and wrong. It was drilled into me that it is shameful to be in debt - that it shows lack of character. I have taken "pride" in handling money efficiently to stay out of debt. Pride goeth before a fall.

Okay this blog is supposed to be about THE GENTLE WAY TO FITNESS!

Well, it's happening. The cable TV appearances are going well. I now have a few really decent DVDs to share. We're going to continue in 2010. Jeremy and I had a really good talk over Thanksgiving and we reached a deeper understanding.

I'm feeling ready to give more classes and workshops. I can do this as a Black Belt Nia teacher also - Gentle Nia.

In the meantime - or along with it all - I am taking a course that my husband teaches. It's called "Living From Vision." This course is amazing and I know it is giving me more tools for my reaching my goals.

As my friend Lee would say, "It's all good."